My first work week is over. On the first day, I was tearful when I was leaving, feeling all kinds of guilty feelings. But when I got home, it turned out Dovie did just fine, so I was greatly relieved.
The second day, I felt a little better about leaving, and even made some progress at work. When I returned home, it turned out that Dovie ate poorly and spent much of the day crying; she proceeded to cry a lot through the evening and the night, needing lots of attention and nursing more than usual. Somewhere in the middle of the night, I remember wishing I could tell Dovie that Mommy wasn't going to leave her again... but I bit my tongue.
On the third day, I was exhausted from the rough night, and, once again, emotional about leaving. And so on. I get the feeling this is going to continue to be a roller-coaster.
Fridays are my "work-from-home" days. I have been looking forward to staying with Dovie all week, except the part where I needed to take her to the pediatrician for her 2-months shots. So we went this morning, and ever since, I have been caring for the saddest little creature in the world. Her muscles are sore to the touch (she got 5 shots, tetanus being in one of them - I remember how sore my arm was from that one myself!), and she is running a low-grade fever. I was told she may be cranky all weekend and that the only thing I can do to help her is give her baby Tylenol (the non-recalled off-brand, that is).
So it is shaping up to be a fun weekend. And then, we are going to start the whole thing over again. Sigh.
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11 comments:
It'll get easier, I promise. You'll make it and Dovie will do just fine. ((Hugs))
You're doing just fine!
Rebecca - I know we will all settle into our new routine soon, and I know having 3 loving care takers is no worse than having one. She is getting adjusted, and one of these days I am bound to start getting more sleep, which will make us all a lot happier!
Jewels - thanks! I know some days will be harder than others, but it is not like I can guarantee a happy infant by just staying home...
Thanks for sharing your experience, and hang in there.
Oh, I'm so sorry. And those shots are the worse--all those needles in a row! I hope she's feeling better today.
And what Rebecca said. It does get easier.
It does get easier honey, I promise. Eventually it gets to the point, where they don't want to leave daycare at all!
my little one is ~7 weeks. and now i'm really not looking forward to the shots!
i've been back at work for 3 weeks and it gets easier. i swear.
Aw, poor little Dovie. It's so tough when they get shots.
Hope this week goes better!
Just now catching up on my blogging...hope it's getting a bit easier!!
Five shots at once? Is that really wise or necessary? Check out The Vaccine Book and consider spacing out the rest of the vaccines (and possibly delaying some until she's older).
EGF - thanks! I am working on it.
The bean-mom - the shots themselves were not nearly as bad as the fever afterward... 2 very cranky days! Better than risking getting any of those diseases, though. And thanks, things do improve, but then we are thrown for a loop by something else!
SM - I think we are pretty far from Dovie preferring being anywhere outside of my arms ;) I am just trying hard in my sleep-deprived state not to miss all the cute little things she does.
Aly - I hope the shots went well for your little one. And yes, going to work has gotten easier. Now just need to get more sleep...
UR - she is not yet old enough to hold it against us; I suspect it may be harder when she knows what's coming!
Dr.O - things are a bit of a roller-coaster - some weeks I think it is getting better, then we take a turn in the wrong direction...
Rebecca (2) - it seemed pointless to split the "fun" into more pieces, and I trust my pediatrician's recommendations on the timing for the vaccines.
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